Friday, October 2, 2015

The Past 2 Weeks

Lately, I've kind of been feeling left out of real life. Obviously, we've been spending a lot of time inside lately. Ellie is about to crawl out of her skin and I'm not far behind her, but things need to be slow right now. While I'm missing my friends and daily social outings, I'm trying to quickly remind myself to soak up the sweetness of these slow days. Our little family bubble will be popped October 8th and I'll never get these days back.

Like I said two posts ago, I want to keep up on my babies little lives, but most nights I'm so physically and mentally tired. All I can do is muster up the strength to eat a big bowl of cake and ice cream and catch up on Hulu while Fitz nurses. Sounds horrible, right? But really, I don't know why the thought of writing is so draining. Tonight was a good night though. Ellie actually stayed in her bed ALONE and fell asleep without the assistance of anything or anyone. This is a big deal. To toot her horn a little more, she also did this for her nap time. Fingers crossed, knock on wood, she'll keep getting better. It may or may not have to do with the fact that her pack and play is sitting in the middle of her room with an open threat of having to sleep in there. Good thing she hasn't put two and two together and realize that she can climb right out. Anyway, it took her until about 9:30 to drift off, but it's better than 11! Here I am with a few extra hours to spare. So, here I am with a sleeping baby on my chest, a big bowl of cake and ice cream, hulu, and with enough energy to write!

Ellie has been quite the character lately. Besides fighting us tooth and nail on her sleep schedule, she's been a little spit fire. She's testing every limit possible and let's just say there have been lots of tears and time spent in her room. It's so hard to watch her act out because I know she's also trying her hardest to be the nicest girl she can be. Never before has she been so agreeable, helpful, and loving. Does that even make sense? Agreeable and a limit tester. It's actually possible. On the moments where we have managed to leave the house she's been in heaven. We've gone to the park a few times and Farmington Station to get her dance on. She's been missing her friends as well and I know she has more energy than she knows what to do with on the days when we don't make it out.

A few nights ago we actually lost her at Farmington Station. She was dancing on the turf and I was sitting on the grass next to her holding Fitz. He spit up and I literally looked down for 4 seconds to wipe his face and I looked up and she was gone. J.rue was occupied for those 4 seconds as well but saw the direction that she ran off. He went one way and I went another. I've never prayed or bargained so quickly and so much in my whole life. Thankfully I ran into a woman from our old ward who offered to hold Fitz while I ran off looking for Ellie. A moment later I saw two little leopard print shoes sitting at a table by herself in Fiiz...drinking an abandoned 44 oz. Proud mother moment. One of my old young women happened to be there as well and was walking over to her just as I was. We were so lucky to have found her safe and sound, but also to have so many wonderful people in our lives looking out for us. Also, Ellie will be on a leash until she's at least 11.

Lately she's been into us clapping for just about everything she does. She also coaches us to say "yay Ellie" whenever she asks. After she's happy with the amount of celebration she'll take a bow and say "thank you much." It's adorable. I was trying to figure out where she picked that up and then I realized it was probably from one of the thousands of hours of TV she's been allowed over the past few weeks.

Fitz is just busy being a newborn. He sleeps, eats, and poops (like 14 times a day). He's a great sleeper and a good eater, unless he wants to sleep more than eat, which is often. He's a stubborn little stinker and really does love to be held. I think he's back and forth on how much he likes his car seat. I'm hoping he'll tip more towards likes. On the few occasions that it's just been the 3 of us, I've been thrown for a loop when I'm trying to help Ellie nap, eat, change, etc and he decides that he wants to be held NOW. Ellie goes into distress mode anytime he cries. I almost wish that I could see our chaos from a third party. It has to be pretty entertaining, and messy. Life has gotten so messy.

Between all of the messes and mountains of diapers though, we've had so many sweet moments as a family. I wouldn't trade this time for anything. Ellie has loved the extra time with her daddy and wants to go everywhere with him. I love watching her grow so effortlessly into a wonderful big sister. She's already asking about a sister and I can't help but laugh. I told her she has to raise her baby brudder first. Oh she loves him.

Wednesday, September 30, 2015


Every since the day I purchased the album, I've loved Mindy Gledhill's song Hourglass. We were far away from being ready for children, but I dreamed of the moment I'd be able to sing this to my little boy. I've sung it to Ellie a couple times but I've found other songs better suited to her and I wanted to save it for my boys. The lyrics couldn't be more perfect.

Little boy, when you speak
I can't help but kiss your cheeks 
I love the way you grab my hands

And tell me all about your plans
Rocket high, comets fly
You and I could take a ride
And fly away to Neverland
And give our best to Peter Pan

When you reach for the stars

Don't forget who you are

And please don't turn around and grow up way too fast
See the sand in my grasp
From the first to the last
Every grain becomes a memory of the past
Oh, life's an hourglass
Life's an hourglass

Story's read, prayer is said

Close your eyes sleepyhead

While angels linger in your dreams
And hold you in their feathered wings

Just like you, I was small

Not that long ago at all

I wish you all the happiness
That God gives freely if you ask

When you reach for the stars

Don't forget who you are

And please don't turn around and grow up way too fast
See the sand in my grasp
From the first to the last
Every grain becomes a memory of the past
Oh, life's an hourglass
Life's an hourglass
Life's an hourglass

Baby Fitz, my little dreamboat, I love you. Please just don't grow up too quickly.

Wednesday, September 23, 2015

Ellie & Fitz

We've spent 4 days as a family of 4 and it's been the sweetest and of course most exhausting days we've had. I have to almost laugh at the early days of Ellie's life. I felt so helpless and overwhelmed. While I feel that those were legitimate feelings, I had no idea what was in store with an added extra. I think a much bigger deal should be made over all proceeding children.

Ellie & Fitz were both the sweetest babies, but I can already see some major differences. Ellie had a hard time eating but was a champ sleeper from about day 4. She also came out independent. She was a hold me or not, I do not care kind of baby. Fitz is a champ eater, a so-so sleeper and demands to be held...always.

I've prayed since the day we found out he was on his way that he and Ellie would be best friends and a support for one another. So far, Ellie loves him. She always says, "I hold it" meaning him of course. She's even tried to help me out and nurse him once in a while. She's never short on hugs or kisses, and she always wants to make sure, "baby comin'?" I have high hopes for these two. Shes not been without her tantrums and outbursts but she hasn't very jealous and if anything helps just a tiny bit too much. Figuring out who to take to the bathroom with me is always a gamble. She really never leaves his side.

Mornings have been the hardest with two bums needing to be changed and two mouths needed to bed fed IMMEDIATELY, but once we get the first, oh hour or so, under our belts we're slowly figuring it out. Last night we were driving home, just the 3 of us and both kids were crying screaming and j.rue was calling trying to figure out the dinner situation. Fitz would only quite down if the radio was up and I was singing at the top of my lungs. Ellie only wanted to listen to 'Shake it Off' at a medium level, but of course once we got to that song, dad was calling. We were also driving home from Ogden, 35 minutes of pure bliss I tell you. We also attempted an outing while dad worked from home. It was ugly to say the least, but it gives me hope for humanity because everyone went out of their way to help me. Bless them.

Two funny stories: Yesterday, I was nursing Fitz and Ellie was coloring on the floor. Without saying a word she got up and walked over to us and licked Fitz's head. I laughed and asked her if his hair tasted good. She said "yep!" and went back to coloring. Silly little goose. Second, Ellie asked to "hold it" and I set her up with the boppy and the baby. She promptly tries to start feeding him to the best of her knowledge. It's so funny to watch her interpret life.

Early this morning, around 4 a.m., I was mentally going through my day reliving all of the frustrating and peaceful moments and began thinking about how I worry I won't remember them. I want to remember every single thing. Everything. I do tend to become a bit obsessive that early in the morning but blogging is the only way I feel like I can do that. I owe it to them, my tiny sweethearts.

Monday, September 7, 2015

Summerfest: July Edition Pt.2

Ok, really this should be a 3 part post, but I just can't drag July out any longer. It was a more eventful month than I thought. The one thing that I can't believe I didn't get pictures of is the painting makeover of our house. When we moved in I was hoping that the main wall color (that's literally everywhere on the 1st and 2nd floors except for the bedrooms) was close enough to gray that it would work with all of our stuff. Sadly, is was too brown and had to go. I coerced my mom and j.rue to paint with me for my birthday present and we pounded it out on a Saturday and our angel Aunt Tori took Ellie for the afternoon. Also on the painting list for the month was the master bedroom, shutters, and front door. If it sounds like a was. It's done now though and I'm so glad we got it done before our little guy got here. I went super bold (I joke) and painted everything white:

We continued to blow lots and lots of bubbles, pretty much every night. There was also some puddle jumping.

Over the summer Ellie has fallen in love with Farmington Station. She loves the fountains, park and dancing the day away on the turf. Melinda, the girls and I visited one Saturday morning while the boys played football.We've had a few good family dates nights there since then.


I've been trying to soak up every little second with our family of 3. We're so excited to add baby brother, but we've gotten into a good groove, the 3 of us. I love them with all my heart. Ellie is developing quite the little personality. She has definitely thrown me for a loop and has become a little more challenging than in her early (baby) days. She has a talent for making me feel like I'm at my breaking point and then goes back to her sweet(er) self. I still love every inch of that vivacious little squirt.

We had a lovely little FHE up Bountiful Canyon. Our hobo dinners were on point and Ellie had I had our first s'mores of the summer. Can you believe it took until the end of July?! Ellie loved being with her cousins and Nana. I really do wish I could go back and tell my high school self that time spent with family really is the best.

Bountiful is waaay bigger on the 24th of July than the 4th. They call it "Handcart Days" and it was pretty fun! We had the fam over for quick BBQ and then we were off to the evening parade. Evening parades are a very good idea in my opinion. It was still blazing hot, but it was fun, and huge. Apparently people take their parade spots very seriously and set up 48 hours before and then camp out to make sure their beloved spot isn't stolen. We decided to take our chances and walk down right before it started. We ended up on the sunny side of the street, but the girls got to be right on the front lines and collected lots of goodies. After that we headed up to Mueller Park where Ellie learned the fine art of rolling down grassy hills. There was also a very decent fireworks show. The next day we tried out the carnival and overdosed on cheap and delicious food and Ellie sized rides. Another reason why I love you so dear Bountiful.

After the carvinal we headed down to SLC for a little birthday getaway. I told J.rue I wanted a little time away from the house and a break from the never ending list of projects. We picked up baby brother's car seat and then headed to the Hilton for the night. We swam, ate pounds of Italian food, and shopped around until City Creek closed. The hotel was close enough to walk  so we took our time getting home. It was so relaxing and nice to get away from it all.

The next day we headed back up north and went to Pineview with my family. I've never seen it so busy in my life. They were turning people away, but J.rue used his sweet talking skills to get us in. Once we finally got there everyone took off on the jet skis for most of the time while Ellie and I lounged in the shade, snacked, and had a little bit of water time. Towards the end she took interest in the paddle board so her daddy took her out. She loved it until they got out on the water and she spent the next 10 minutes saying "no wet daddy". She's a wuss, just like yours truly. We have absolutely no interest in getting her face wet or really much of anything else for that matter. It just makes us cold. By the time we packed up Ellie was pooped and slept all the way home. Her hair was evidence of a good day.

On my actual birthday J.rue and I spoke in church and my mom spoiled me by making me a delicious fruit pizza and a fancy dinner of tater tot casserole, one of my favorite dinners. It was a nice relaxing day, after the speaking was over. I welcome 26 with open arms and can't wait to see what this year will bring!

I'm lucky enough to share a birthday with my first niece, Brooklyn Jayde. Her mom threw her the cutest fairy birthday party, topped off with a little fairy trinket hunt. Ellie was in heaven and loves to do everything her cousin does. Ever since her birthday Ellie has been obsessed with the ideas of birthdays, especially singing happy birthday. We've sung happy birthday to Brooklyn probably almost every day since then.

Other random photos...Ellie fell in love with bubble wrap and I keep some in the mud room and give her a new piece every few weeks. One sheet even made it into the tub with her. Kind of gross, but also mostly whatever. She loves it. We also went to my cousin's daughter's concert up at Red Butte Gardens. I couldn't get a great photo of her, but we loved listening to Riley sing and play the keyboard and guitar. She's so talented! Also, Melinda and I have been anxiously awaiting the grand opening of Steak N Shake. It didn't disappoint. We've been back more than several times.

Oh and I don't have an after pictures of our shutters yet (next time!) but I do have one of the front door. I'm very proud of her.

Huge difference! Whew! Does anyone else feel out of breath? That was our July. I'm sure things were missed, but better than nothing. It was a wonderful month. Really, it's just been a good summer and I can't believe today is the last day! We count it as the last day because the pools and splash pads close, thumbs down. August, I'm coming for you next!